*sigh*
One day I want to take my time and build myself a nice boat, gather a crew of nakama, and sail the seas to make the world a better place.. A few days later I just want to get a small boat for myself, take to the seas alone, and forget the rest of the world......
One day I care so much about everyone around me and want to help them.. the next I can't stand people and simply wish to be left alone to my own thoughts & devices......
Maybe I'm bi-polar? Just not the extreme type where my mood swings wildly in a single day, but where my mood swings slowly from one extreme to another.. Maybe it's because I'm a Libra? Or maybe it's just because I'm a woman and these things are natural...? I don't know anymore..
At least one thing remains constant.. I want to have a boat and sail the world's oceans. As a sailor, I can spend time with people when I wish and leave them behind when I wish to be left alone. Maybe I'd be better off with a small ship and sailing solo... I don't know today...
I hate the way I am sometimes.. my fickleness and not always knowing exactly what I want. If I held Captain Jack Sparrow's compass right now, it'd be spinning wildly without any direction to point in. But then again.. once I voice my feelings and concerns.. things change and I begin to find my direction again~
*chuckles & sighs*
Oh well.. it's just a function of the day~ I'll get over it~^^
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