Taking a step back..

I've come to realize that I need to take a step back and slow down a bit. I'm trying to do too much, way too quickly and it's making it all seem near impossible to do at all. So, I'm taking a step back. One step at a time.. I have so many big dreams and so much I want to do in this life that I keep coming up with more and more ideas. But I need to remind myself sometimes to just take things a bit more slowly. "The world wasn't conquered in a day" Nor could the world ever be conquered even if I had my entire lifetime to do it.


So, I have decided to go back to the root and core of my dream. Start off with a simple, small ship and work my way up. I'm a bit impatient in this it seems and I don't want to wait for 4 or 5 years before taking to the sea. I want to go right now! But I have to fulfill my obligations here in Korea first. But as soon as I get back to the states, I'm going to buy a small ship (approximate 30ft) and get started on my dream right away. I have a friend in Haiti who could use some help, so maybe I'll sail down and help him for a while with the orphanage he's trying to build and get set up.


I will also get back to my field of interest; environmental studies and preservation. I want to get back to preserving the land and the natural resources we have. I've found that caring a lot about the things I can't control does nothing but get me upset and depressed. So I'm going to forget the world's problems for a while and focus on my own. Get back to my roots and taking care of my own needs. It's not that I don't care! In fact, it's the exact opposite! I care sooo much that it affects my daily life and causes me to lose focus on what's really important. My own life and what I can do right now.


So that's that.... I'm going back to the simple plan of going off on my own in my own little ship with little to no crew. I'm going to live on the sea by myself for a while and travel until I can get my head around what it is I actually need to do to make a difference in this world. I've decided that eventually I will write books. I have several topics in mind for books I wish to write. I also know that I want to help others and the children. I want to break down borders and put an end to all the fighting and hatred that plagues our world.


I just hope that I can find a way to do all that and be able to make a difference....