This upcoming holiday..

St. Patty's Day is right around the corner. I wasn't going to even bother celebrating it, but I've been invited out to a huge festival that's going to be held in Seoul. That.. and my new boyfriend really wants me to go to it with him.

I still can't believe I have a boyfriend now. It just doesn't feel like it. But he is sweet, funny, understanding, and giving... all the things I've been looking for. For the first time, I have a man that not only wants to get to know me completely for who I am with no delusions or games.. but actually truly understands me! No one has EVER understood me! Not even my own family!

I can't hide anything from him, because he can see it in my eyes. Which anyone should have noticed that fact, but no one has ever really taken the time to do so. He knows exactly what to do to comfort me, make me smile, even make me laugh. We both like the same things.. and even hate the same things. It all just seems so unreal.

We'll see.... I'm trying not to have any expectations and I'm also trying to keep from falling in too deeply, too quickly. I CANNOT get hurt again.... I just can't........ It'd destroy me............... But he seems to know this and understand it. He's trying hard not to push things and let me take my time. He's told me that this is hard for him too, because he has been hurt as well. He even came to Korea because he just had to get away from it all. He just never expected to run into a girl like me.. nor did I ever expect to run into a guy like him. I had even settled for spending the rest of my life alone and was perfectly fine with the idea. It's all just so perfectly random and unexpected that neither of us really know what to make of it..... keh~

So... this St. Patty's Day will be the first I ever actually celebrated and partied for. Only because he wants to spend the time with me and take me to the festival. I will try to post pictures and a blog about the party. It should be fun~^^ Wish me luck in this... I'm gonna need it.......